Last nite, i got a call from my ex hubby asking me to accompany him and kids to open fasting. Well, frankly kind a surprising me to hear it since our divorce more than 4 years ago and also coz he has his own new family again, i have all tried my best to limit the frequency of communicating with him for many reasons such as respecting his new status and his new family right now, and specially I don't want to know anything about him so much since we already decided to take our own separate life path. Only for kids business that i am willing to talk with him.
And another surprise, only 5 minutes from my ex phone call, my eldest son was calling me....told me that he miss to see me and his dad having family dinner with him and his little sister. Well, I said to my son...why sudden u did ask that since I never got any complain from both of my kids of missing their daddy. My son just gave me simple answer, coz today is ramadhan day Mommy, I think i wanna open fasting this time with daddy and mommy, please....
Well,...to be honest it was really difficult for me to decide..but i know I already being a soft weak mommy from the first day of my divorce since I always felt that I could not give a complete set of parents and happy family and happy perfect childhood for my kids. So, ya..i said okay for my son and yes all of us (my ex, our kids, and I) had open fasting dinner yesterday nite. And I saw my kids really enjoyed that moment.
And how is for my ex husband feeling? Well....I still do not want to know....and how is my feeling? Am I happy to see my kids happy? Frankly, it was and it is mix feeling....happy to know and to see my kids happy for their time with their daddy but also I know this is not the proper thing to do...
