There was a girl. From outside, people saw her as a pretty, smart and friendly outgoing kind of girl. No one ever knew even noticed that she was, actually, lonely. Yeah, she had so many friends, either female or male. But no one of them closed enough touching her heart. No one closed enough to be trusted by her to share her very bad memory. A very bad memory that has been haunting her since many years ago.
One day, when she felt that she could not take it alone by herself any longer, she tried to talk about it to her mom. But her mom did not believe her story. Her mom said she just made the story up. She was frustrated. If her mommy did not believe her, another person might do the same, she thought. When she felt more frustrated, she tried to decrease her pain by writing diary.
In writing, she felt better. Every night she wrote for all the things happened in her life. As the days went by, her friendship with her diary became stronger, as being looked from the sentences written inside,"Dear Diary, you are very nice. Every night you listens me. You listens to me. You are always there for me, in happy or sad I am. Specially, when no body wants to listen me."
From her friendship with the diary, she just got some new lessons;
- When no body listen you, then believe that there is always 'others' willing to listen you, but you just might not talk in 'normal' way.
- No body in the world is without pain. Those who are looking very happy can have some pain, but they just hide it because no body listen them.
That girl was me.
As I grow up, in my everyday journey in this world, I can not tell what may happen to me but I always could be able to decide what happens in me and how I like it be and what I do with it.
I learn how I take the raw stuff of life and make it a thing of worth and beauty, all of this what really counts in the end.
Always there is a test of living. But this what life is all about.
That what ever happened in my life, I must try to learn, never stop to understanding the meaning being brought by life, and don't forget to appreciate the lesson of life.
Just enjoy and treasure the paths of my life journey, always :)
